Then as it is Now
Call You Tomorrow - Montell Fish The lasting guilt that comes with outgrowing people is something we hardly talk about. This includes family, our parents and siblings. You’re at a point in time where you now know where the trauma and hurt truly stems from. Knowing who you now need to detach yourself from. To merely see notifications from them and your instinctual thought be a subtle plea for them to leave you alone. Sure enough, you don’t want them dead or gone, or to even be alone. Just in desperate need of a little silence. I think I’m going insane, slowly but surely, I’m losing my mind. Sometimes I feel like I’m getting better but I could also just be manic. Then the ultimate crash comes and I’m reminded of the reality of my situation. It’s all wrong and I don’t think it’s going how it’s supposed to. I’m blanking. I don’t know what to do anymore than to just… be. Even then I find it hard to exist. I’m exhausted and my mind is burnt out from working double shifts. I think my tim...