Here I Am

I stand before you naked

wide eyed with open arms 

I am at birth as I am now

there I was pure and innocent

here I am broken and bruised

I come before you in your presence 

with all my sins and insecurities

my deepest desires and shallowest thoughts

I beg for forgiveness 

and with no fuss, I am forgiven

I beg for strength, guidance, and protection 

and with no debrief or deposit

you offer me your son

I am at birth as I am now 

guided and protected, divinely and rightfully so

Forgive me for I have sinned like no other

Forgive me for I have lived double lives

Rid me of the guilt and shame

That’s attached to my name

Cleanse my soul and purify me whole

I no longer wish to hate 

or be consumed by anger

Offer me to others 

as a loophole vessel of reciprocity 

an embodiment of light and love

Forgive me for I harbor anger and resentment

Subconsciously tallying the pain over the years

But as I sit here in deafening silence 

Staring into the empty abyss of nothingness

Hearing the whispers of the rain

and loud chatter in my head

I continue to fight an internal war, a losing battle

this you already know, and that you already told

Here I am again and I beg for forgiveness

Forgive me for I let my ego hold me hostage

Here I am now as Adam and Eve were

Forgive me for I have sinned like some other

I ignored you and I’ve ignored your son

So, here I am now as I was then

I stand before you naked

wide eyed with open arms 

I am at birth as I am now

Innocent and pure

Free from shame and guilt

No slave to ego, a servant to humility

Lord, 

I need you.