Here I Am

By Jodane Mowatt
I stand before you naked

wide eyed with open arms 

I am at birth as I am now

there I was pure and innocent

here I am broken and bruised


I come before you in your presence 

with all my sins and insecurities

my deepest desires and shallowest thoughts

I beg for forgiveness 

and with no fuss, I am forgiven

I beg for strength, guidance, and protection 

and with no debrief or deposit

you offer me your son


I am at birth as I am now 

guided and protected, divinely and rightfully so

Forgive me for I have sinned like no other

Forgive me for I have lived double lives

Rid me of the guilt and shame

That’s attached to my name


Cleanse my soul and purify me whole

I no longer wish to hate 

or to be consumed by anger

Offer me to others 

as a flawed vessel of grace 

an embodiment of light and love


But as I sit here in deafening silence 

Staring into the empty abyss of nothingness

Hearing the whispers of the rain

and loud chatter in my head

I realize this is an internal war, a losing battle

this you already know, and that you’ve already told


Forgive me for I harbor anger and resentment

I kneel beneath the weight of my ego’s chains

I am now as Adam and Eve were

As were Cain and Abel 

I’ve ignored you and I’ve ignored your son

So, here I am now as I was then


I stand before you naked

wide eyed with open arms 

I am at birth as I am now

Innocent and pure

Free from shame and guilt

No slave to ego, a servant to humility


Lord, I need you.

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